Purge

Hello Loves,
Its been a very very long time but I am back. And I must say that I missed you. I can't wait to catch all of you up on what I have been doing since I was last here and I can't wait to see what you all have been doing while I was away. I must say it feels good to be home.

Lots of Love
*Oleander*

Where does the time go?

What is it... What is it about you that makes my heart flutter, my blood hot. What is it?

"Burn on Man fire Burn on."

Do you find that is easier to forgive others, than it is to forgive yourself?

I have found that more and more I am driven by my emotions.
I am driven by the need to stuff them down inside of me. I feel like I spend my days choking on overwhelming feelings trying to force their way out.

It is that time once again loves, time to introduce a new character, in the story that is my life.
He is fire (Boy Fire to be exact) and he is a flame to which I am undeniably drawn.
He isn't really my type, I barely find him physically attractive, but here I am still thinking about him days after our last encounter. I hear the words that he speaks to me over and over again in my head, and his scent is for ever blazed into my memory. I have been attracted to many but truly drawn to few, but it has always made sense before. There was always a reason, not the least of which was pure physical attraction, but not this time to be perfectly honest this isn't the guy that would normally inspire dirty thoughts, or even a second thought if I walked passed him on the street.
So why..., why him, why is it him that slips into my dreams at night?
I am utterly confused.
I can not explain it.
I have no idea why he has become my Boy Fire.
But what I do know is that Fire burns.

How would you finish this sentence?


I am.....

Today (or at least right now) I would have to say
I am sleepy, I am confused, I am sad (for no reason in particular) I am annoyed, and I am ready for something new.

What about you?


Lots of Love
*Oleander*

"Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live."