Jul 29, 2009

Driven

I have found that more and more I am driven by my emotions.
I am driven by the need to stuff them down inside of me. I feel like I spend my days choking on overwhelming feelings trying to force their way out.

Jul 22, 2009

Fire

It is that time once again loves, time to introduce a new character, in the story that is my life.
He is fire (Boy Fire to be exact) and he is a flame to which I am undeniably drawn.
He isn't really my type, I barely find him physically attractive, but here I am still thinking about him days after our last encounter. I hear the words that he speaks to me over and over again in my head, and his scent is for ever blazed into my memory. I have been attracted to many but truly drawn to few, but it has always made sense before. There was always a reason, not the least of which was pure physical attraction, but not this time to be perfectly honest this isn't the guy that would normally inspire dirty thoughts, or even a second thought if I walked passed him on the street.
So why..., why him, why is it him that slips into my dreams at night?
I am utterly confused.
I can not explain it.
I have no idea why he has become my Boy Fire.
But what I do know is that Fire burns.

Jul 20, 2009

How would you finish this sentence?


I am.....

Today (or at least right now) I would have to say
I am sleepy, I am confused, I am sad (for no reason in particular) I am annoyed, and I am ready for something new.

What about you?


Lots of Love
*Oleander*

Jul 19, 2009

Quote for the Day

"Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live."

Jul 16, 2009

So for those of you still following along at home, I found out during my hiatus that Quicksilver is pregnant. I don't know how far a long or anything like that since it wasn't even her that I heard the news from. As always my first instinct was to call her and see how things were going hoping that she would tell me she was sorry for the way things had been but she had huge news and was excited to share it with me, but I decided against it. I think this time I will wait for her, if she wants she can call me, I am so over being the one that works at this.
I am a little sad though, I always thought that when we got to the part in our lives that we were ready (as ready as you can be) for such things, that it would be something that we shared with each other. Doing all the fun and exciting things that women do with each other when one of them is expecting. I guess that isn't going to be our reality.
Such is life.


Lots of Love
*Oleander*

Jul 13, 2009

Can you really ever have too much of a good thing?

Jul 9, 2009

Letters to My S.O.

Dear S.O.,
I love you, but sometimes you irritate me so much I just want to jab my finger right into you eye.



Lots of Love
*Oleander*

Jul 8, 2009

Well thanks for asking,

Since last I wrote a lot has happened, but I don't want to spend all my time talking about the past so I will give you the short list. Be sure that details will come as they are needed.
So with out further ado here they are...

The Top 10 things that happened while I was gone. (and as always in no particular order)

1. I found out that Quicksilver is pregnant
2. I made new friends
3. Lots of famous people died (although that's not really about me)
4. I acquired a new out look
5. I started dreaming about someone new
6. I let go of the Grinch (for good this time I think)
7. I finally got to quit my old job and start a new one
8. I lost some weight
9. I remembered the old me... the good and the bad
10. I freakin missed this place like crazy



Lots of Love
*Oleander*

Jul 7, 2009

Quick Note

As I am scrambling to catch up on all I have missed these last few months I have noticed that a lot of my favorite bloggers have also spent the last few months on some sort of hiatus I hope that like me they will be returning soon.


Lots of Love
*Oleander*

I'm Back Loves

Well loves I am back!!! And I must say that I have really missed you. Lots has happened since last I Purged some of it interesting some not so much. I feel like I have a million things to get out of my system and a million blogs to catch up on so stay tuned, and know that even though I have been away for so very long I haven't stopped thinking about you.



Lots of Love
*Oleander*

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